Somehow I feel that there’s nobody, nowhere, nothing for me to trust anymore.

I thought I am brightened, but I think I’m just being gullible again.

I thought I am being appreciated, but I think I’m just being dumb.

I thought I could trust into a comfort zone, but I’m just being stupid.

Don’t come near me, no matter who you are and where you’re from.

I shall now be a cactus with torns to shun every single cell.

Unless I am being proven wrong.

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Started my strength endurance training this morning, and shall continue on daily basis to strengthen myself in every aspect.

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Am I falling into a trap of lies?

Its ingredients include eggs, soft bean curd and wholemeal bread.

Here’s our end product. Does it looks similar to the one featured in this month’s issue of Men’s Health Singapore? Hehe.

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Starting a brand new routine tomorrow.

Planning to get Mummy and Daddy into a exercise regime, so arranging a membership at my club very soon. I’ll be sponsoring.

I am glad that Aloysius will be back for his exercise regime at Fitness First too. Smiles.

11:12am. Called a prospective member to check on her decision, she’s going for it and is bringing her colleagues down to take a look too. Made an appointment with them at 12:30pm.

Rushed my lunch, to shower, then took a cab to the club.

12:20pm. Arrived at the club. She and her colleagues were already touring the club with Elizabeth.

Elizabeth came in to the office. I thought she would tell me what happened to my appointment. Apparently she didn’t say anything until I asked her. She said that the member who brought them in had an appointment with Dexter. I was like, HUH?! She didn’t say anything to me after.

I was so disappointed.

She was never like this, and I made the rush back in vain.

Even when the weather was very cloudy, I grabbed my bag and took a trip to Vivocity for a minor retail therapy.

Went to renew my Sentosa Islander membership. The new card looks cool!

Newurbanmale.com was my next stop. Bought myself two tees – “Tears Dried Heart Died” and my long-awaited “I’m Just An Inexperienced Little Thing Looking For An Experience”. As well, renewed my NUMplus membership. To further brightened up my mood, I was served by this NUM Ambassador – Louis – with his great service and patience to assist me with my experience at their new store. Kudos!

I took a ride to Sentosa.

When I was at the Beach Station, it started to drizzle, without much hesitation, I continued my journey to Tanjong Beach walking in the drizzling rain with my precious iPod Nano. As I wasn’t able to do anything at the beach, I took a return journey back to the Beach Station and walk through the recovering weather to Siloso Beach.

I’ve took a picture of the main character of a new entertainment venue – Songs of the Sea.

Upon seeing the Beach Volleyball court, I so wanted to play a game or two, but no mates with me to do it at the point of time.

However, I managed to step into the Jungle Trail and to explore where it leads to – Images of Singapore.

After Café del Mar and Siloso Beach Resort, I came across a interesting pond with it’s sign saying “Deep Pond. Do Not Enter.” I was wondering, how did could that be, unless it links to the sea. Hmm.

Well, another interesting venue is the washrooms at the Beach Station, it’s facing Songs of the Sea.

Made a detour back home to get changed before I head down back to the club for my appointments. Dressed in the new “Tears Dried Heart Died” tee, my NUM white vintage shorts and Braziliano flip-flops. Hehe. I am feeling Newurbanmale.com again. Maybe I should work for them as their Ambassador too.

I get to see Aloysius again, he came with his friend for workout. Somehow when we met up, the way we communicate is just like back to those times when we were together, unlike the previous meet up for our Basic Exercise Course where we didn’t talk much. He works magic again. Hehe.

His friend signed up as a member after their workout. Thanks dear for the referral. *Smile*

Bernard and Ashtab, welcome to the embarkment of your new exercise program in achieving your fitness goals!

On a side note, here’s how my two new NUM tees look like:

Star Search is back in mega impact and excitements!

Will I be the next Star? *Wink*

I’ve made reservation at Grand Hyatt Singapore’s Straits Kitchen for the dinner treat.

Mummy was a little reluctant to go this evening which she thinks dining at our usual coffee-shop is more economical, but heck, it’s a day to pamper her no matter what.

We’ve arrived at the Grand Hyatt Singapore and were welcomed by the nice waterfall at their backyard.

Other than her feeling like a Queen, she felt like a celebrity too as camera flashes around her. Hehe.

Finally after a while, she put a halt to all action but to start feasting.

We’ve made our drinks order – me having a Sourplum Juice – and proceeded to forks on the buffet delicacies.

I personally recommend the steamed fish, it’s definitely fresh and tender, a must-try!

We enjoyed lots of different food choices ranging from Chinese, Muslim and Indian. Almost each of all the items were filled on our table. Yum yum!

Satay is delicious’ly grilled. In Malay, “Sedap!”

Muah-chi is my all-time favourite anywhere it appears.

We’ve enjoyed the filling dinner and precious time together as a family.

Mummy, happy mother’s day! I love you! Muackx.

Very often, I asked myself, am I too gullible?

Was I being led on too easily at times?

I am having mixed feeling.

I am happy to lead a carefree life by myself, when the silent darkness falls upon, I feel lonely.

I shiver. I feel cold. I feel empty.

A shoulder to lean on is what I yearn for, a person to share my daily joys and to advise upon unhappiness, but..

Aloysius, I do still miss you. You were the only person who made me feel the love and complete’ness.

People who expressed interest in me but fades off to another person the next moment. I don’t enjoy this.

It’ll only increases my hate list one after another.

I want to stand alone, but the inner me doesn’t condone.

Am I meant to be caught in such on-going dilemma?

Individual plans his or her work-out schedule to be in the early morning, therefore wants to come for a complimentary session then.

Today, woke up at 6:30am, showered and done. Got out to the lift lobby, mobile message alert tone sounded.

Appointment cancelled, due cause individual just got out of bed.

This isn’t the first.

I could have slept in longer as I usually only need to get to work at 10am.

I wouldn’t mind waking up earlier to assist individuals who would like to kick-start a better living, but..

“Help me, help you” is all I could say now. Sigh.