Mood dampen.

Heart weaken.

Life fogging.

The night went silent..

Haha! I learn while at work, meet up with people from different walks of life, enjoy myself, a fun team, loving environment. What more can I ask for?

Done with work, met up with Jules at Paragon for dinner at Tambuah Mas Indonesian Restaurant.

I love the Tahu Telok the most! Yum yum!

One thing is, we both got really full from just THREE (03) items. However, enjoyed the dinner. Thanks Jules Jules!

We took a short stroll before we decided to head down to The Atrium to chill-out at The Coffee Connoisseur. He had his Iced Coffee while I had a coffee “shooter” – O-Honey.

We had a really great time catching up, except he appears to be a little tied up with work every now and then.

Thanks dear for the great night-out! Muackx!

The service cramps. The food wasn’t good. The argument arose lame. Simply, the evening was ruined!

As said previously, I hate people who doubts me, this time round it happens again and I hate people who got no knowledge about certain things and try to act smart. Get off my back!

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Woke up at 5AM.

Travelled to Singapore Changi Airport Terminal 1 to send Jeannie off, she’s going back to Philippines to continue her studies there.

Remembered the first time I saw her at Café del Mar, she was so quiet but friendly at the same time. Her smile was on like around the clock.

As we work together more often, she begins to open up and shared her happiness and joy. She’s such a sweet looking lady.

Now that she has to leave Singapore, I do hope to see her back here pretty soon. Everyone’s eyes were red and filled with tears – Jeannie, Ladylen, Alex, Samson and I. Sigh.

Life is like that, when time is up, when we have to go..

Take care my sweet lady, we’ll miss you! Hugs and muacks!

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Had breakfast at the staff canteen. Hopped on a cab to office.

Started my day with mixed feelings, however, the work brings me smiles.

Arranged for a dinner with Jules this evening at 8:30PM.

Since I have got quite a bit of time after work, I went to window shop with Samson and Chris.

By the side of Centrepoint, we saw this cute doggie. Woof Woof!

I bought Jay Chou “On The Run” album at HMV. Chris was asked to buy “Fabulous 2008″, after-which Alvin managed to obtain a 20% for him, since then he was bitching about it. WHATEVER!

I left to Takashimaya (Ngee Ann City) for a walk while waiting for Jules, but shortly after he messaged that he was still waiting for client therefore won’t be able to make it for the dinner. I was upset, and headed home.

I was not in the mood for anything, after my shower, my Dad was so annoying, kept nagging me and I got pissed off that I picked up the tissue box and threw it at him. I was so tempted to pick up this Sony VAIO of mine to slam at him instead.

I felt so dumb. I felt so made used of. I felt so cheated.

It never pays to be nice, therefore, I am not going to bother about anything.

Don’t expect me when you don’t bother.

“Based on a very popular eponymous Manga series which began in 2002, is an action packed comedy about Sung Chan, a young Korean chef who has lost his confidence after a terrible incident caused by his food. He is nevertheless been convinced to enter in a national competition, organized to find the true and only heir to the last royal chef of the Chosun Dynasty and inherited his famous knife and restaurant. Le Grand Chef is brimming with thrilling set pieces, broad humor, mouth-watering food and a skillful interweaving of heartfelt back stories.”

It is simply a FIVE out of five rating title. Thumbs-up!

A MUST-watch! Go! Go! Go!

As the most vulnerable section of society, children continue to bear the brunt of the pandemic. Around half a million children under 15 died of the disease in the last year, while another 640,000 became HIV-positive. Today, there are 2.2 million children living with HIV. Millions more have lost parents to the disease, left with others to take care of them or, in some cases, to fend for themselves.

HIV/AIDS is having a far-reaching impact on societies around the globe, affecting economic growth, income and poverty levels. It has no regard for a person’s economic status, however, the poor do suffer more acutely. Families and communities are devastated by the social and economic impact of the pandemic. Families experience not only the pain of losing a loved one, but the added burden of financial ruin.

ONE LIFE Experience – an extraordinary, interactive, walk-through exhibit about real people affected by HIV/AIDS in Singapore, Africa and Cambodia. Travel to the African savanna or stay close to the home of Singapore, learn about AIDS through the eyes of its victims and see the human face of HIV.

It has arrived at Singapore Management University this weekend – a exhibit tour which ends off with a HIV test. Since I am having my day off, the deal is on.

Before I embarked my journey, it has been very hard for me, thinking of the increasing number of people affected, the decreasing age group it affected, and especially the children. As well, the level of risk that I was exposed to. It’s weighing down on me.

I was being brought into the life journey of a Cambodian lady – Ser Mon. At a very young age, she lost her father to Malaria disease, and her mother brought her brother away, leaving her behind alone. Someone whom believed to be the landlord, tricked her out saying to bring her to her mother, but droved her to the open market and dumped her there. However, she was taken in by a man who gave her work, only then she realised it is a prostitution job. She was fighting hard against it, but she gave in for the hunger and thirst she suffered from for days. Soon, she became weak and ill..

Upon waiting in the small and run-down clinic, she was so afraid and felt so helpless, only then she was contracted with AIDS. She sits in a dark, quiet, filthy corner.. all by herself.. lonely, depressed, discriminated.. I felt her agony as I was re-enacting her long wait in life for someone to bring her out of this dark cave.

At the end of the journey, you can choose to enter the Reflection Room or Chapel, I took the footsteps that lead me to God..

“Dear God, I seek for your forgiveness. I am sorry for putting my first step in towards the wrong path. I realised my sin. I do not wish to be the additional burden to my family and my loved ones, instead, I want to pull-through the crisis together with them. They are important to me, they really do. I seek guidance to take flight from this sin by the name of God. Amen.”

My foot became heavier, it’s dragging along the way as I walked towards the HIV Testing and Consulting Room.

Took the test, waited for the result. It has been the longest wait of my life, the 15-mins seems forever. I felt lost. I felt the agony. I was already preparing for the worst, but still hoping for the ray of light to bring me out. I reflected a lot.

Result: NEGATIVE.

“GOD, I thank you for listening to me. I thank you for your hand to lead me out of this dark room. I thank you for not giving up on me though for the mistakes I made. I thank you for loving this son of yours. I hope you will continue to lead many others out of this horrifying dark room, especially the innocent children, through the ray of light. I thank you for everything. Amen.”

It is truly a ONE LIFE experience.

We must learn the precious’ness of life. Appreciate your family, your loved ones and everyone around you.

Your life – One Life – is valuable and it counts! Do something! Together, we can stop fear and hate today!

Side note: I do not appreciate individuals when they doubt me. Even if you do, keep the comment to yourself. I do not appreciate individuals who mock at others especially the poor, mentally and physically disabled, ill’ed. As well, I do not appreciate individuals who try to jeopardize my life.

.. Berdley screams, “HAPPY FABULOUS 2008!!”

Looking back.. 2007 was filled with fun and laughters, but it didn’t treat me good either.

Requested for a transfer to a new club at One Raffles Quay expecting greater challenges and better advancement, however, never did I realise, it has became my worse nightmare and did I really made a wrong decision in it?

Working environment changed drastically that repelled my belonging there, so I decided to depart a TWO years career. I couldn’t bear to leave a couple of nice people and my members there, but I couldn’t bring myself to continue in that kind of situation.

I got back-stabbed by friends, which makes me realise, can people around me be trusted?

Embarked a new journey by the beach, it was very fulfilling as I met up with a lot of fun personalities that spiced up my life there. I picked up new skills and experiences along the way, especially in wine presentation.

Soon, I was shouldered with more responsibilities, in-charge of running my team, planning and making decisions.

Someone came knocking on my head..
.. “You get paid little for so much work?”
.. “Your body clock is so messed up with unsettled shifts.”
.. “You’ve got NO LIFE! No time for even yourself, less family and friends!”

I have gone through much thoughts, and made a decision.

However, I truly miss my fellow mates there who brought me laughters each day, especially Elizabeth, who has taught me a lot and groomed me. I am sorry towards her, ‘cos she pinned the most hope on me, and at the end of the day, I departed.

Everyone wants to get a piece of me, made me felt like a toy. PLEASE STOP IT! STOP TOYING WITH MY FEELING!

I was once again, back-stabbed. This time round, I discovered even more in depth. I am truly disappointed, and told myself, I will never trust, except if one managed to convince me enough.

Through incidents, I am offended!

Alright, enough of the unpleasant moments.

Now, what has 2008 installed for everyone of us here?

For me, like everyone else, I have my resolutions to achieve. Just to list a few..
.. get on a good and challenging career;
.. my special one to come into my life;
.. providing my love ones with better living;
.. obtain a Class 3 driving license;
.. ability to own a car;
.. etc.

How about you?

I do hope that everyone will experience a FABULOUS 2008 with loads of joyous moments. Cheerios!